Surgery Tomorrow

Scheduled for surgery @ 2:45 to repair the fistula. Unbelievably nervous today. This anxiety stuff is manageable most days, but right now I feel like my esophagus us chewing it's way down my throat to meet my small intestine.

Surgery is Scheduled

2:45 Wednesday the 27th I'm going under the knife for a fistula repair.

I am feeling really nervous about this surgery. And a TON of anxiety about our finances...we have no savings, and I'm really not sure what we are going to do for the six weeks I'm recovering.

I am confident that we will make it thought this tough period. And I can see us happy on the other side of this.

So for now I guess we will just keep calm and carry on.

No it hasnt

Back to the dr today. Had the catheter removed and will be scheduled for another surgery by Monday.

Feeling relieved to have a definite plan in place.

Scared of another surgery.

2-4 days in patient...6 weeks out of work. No lifting for 3 months!

I can do this. I can do this. I can do this.

The leaking has stopped!

Not an official statement from my doctor.
Just an observation.

Fingers crossed it stays this way!

Bladder Spasms

My son burned his hand on the coffee maker a couple days ago. I had no choice but to take both kids to a Dr appointment and have him checked out. After loading and unloading 2 kids and a stroller my bladder freaked. And started spasming in a way that resembles menstrual cramping.

I called my Dr and asked what to do yesterday and he put me on ANOTHER medication to calm the spasms. I like my doctor an trust his decisions but today I am feeling frustrated by the necessity to add another medication to my daily regiment.

I am 30 years old! That's quite young by most standards. And every day I take:
Zantac for heartburn
Losartan for blood pressure control and Kidney Maintenance
Vitamin D3 to boost a deficiency
Citalopram to help control my anxiety issues
Levaquin - an antibiotic to try and prevent kidney infection while stuck with re catheter. This one is KILLING my somach.
Lorazepam - aka Adivan. I had a major
Spike in stress an anxiety levels after the fistula opened and needed extra assistance controling my anxiety.

And yesterday I added Vesicare to control bladder spasms.



Still feeling run down today. Maybe its the meds. More likely it's my mental state.

Stressed about money.

Tired of my body failing me.

Tired of the strain this is putting on my family and my husband.

We are ready for some good luck around here! Any positive thoughts you can send our way are greatly appreciated!

Catheter

Yep. I get to choose from wearing a catheter for a month to see if the fistula heals on its own, or scheduling surgery now.

I guess i am going for a second opinion before deciding anything...

Well at least before changing my mind. I am already wearing the damn catheter.

If there was ever a day that deserved a mint Oreo blizzard I am thinking this is it...

F is for Fistula

After a little investigation last night I discovered where my leak was actually coming from. And it's not where I initially thought.

I called my doctor and told her I thought I was leaking urine from my vagina. She got me in first thing this morning for an exam. She said she could see the urine leaking into my vagina. She also said "what the fuck" a couple times...which, I am pretty sure, is an actual medical term.

Now I am scheduled to see a urologist this afternoon.

It sounds like I have another surgery in my near future.

The real bitch about this whole mess is that our insurance renews on 6-1-2012 and I have already hit my deductible after the last surgery.

So I guess I am hoping to have surgery tomorrow.

Yikes.